Explaining my depression to my EX

Every evening my head sets nearly breaking down from my neck
I remember every piece of peace we experienced sitting at the cliff watching the sun set
I remember every stones we threw down the cliff ..i can count them
We could watch together the debris disappearing into the abyss
I remember I told you how my love for you is like the stones we threw
That it grows deeper my heart each year month week day hour minute second name it

Your existence in my life is taking over my mind
I can’t stop having a series of serious flashbacks
Sometimes I forget myself to smiling silly in the air
I remember every kisses you stole
I remember every hugs from my back
I remember every talks walks laughs dances plays days we spent together
I see you smiling right to my face forcing me to smile shyly
I remember you more than the previous second

I have all the quarreles and fights stuck right here in my mind
I miss them
I miss when you will quarrel me to be a woman you want
I miss how you fought for my attention
I miss how you complained I slept early
I miss how you could get mad I delayed your text
Baby I miss having someone fighting for me
I miss someone craving my presence
I miss

I don’t have who to tell my fears fearing they will find them weird
I don’t have who to wake up late night to share my nightmare
I don’t have company during my sleepless nights

You left with my peace
You made me realize you were my right
You left exposing me to every kind of storms
My eyes raining tears washing down my happiness
I’m left helpless like a branch tattered by hailstorms

@lyricalvii