No matter how much I tried avoiding him,
I still needed him in my door step..

My heart rejected him,
But my blood boiled for him,
His presence turned me silly and not myself
It wasn’t right all
The first week without him made me weak
What I could have of him is his laughs and smiles tattooed in my mind
He was a spell
A sweet nightmare
His marks on my life grew crystal with the illusions I experienced,
I can’t call him my right or wrong..
I lost his position in my life
Maybe like wind it came and went

But its breeze still felt and refreshing
I wasnt sure what I felt for him

I kept listening to my door
Maybe he will knock
Maybe I needed him for this cold and lonelyness
Hallucins of his coming in
And a woman possesed is running to him like he’s made of life
The hugs and light kisses drew me a smile
And a times with his “Angry” threw me to the cauch and..
..darkness

It’s him again,like he has his world in my brain
He controlled it his way
I wish I could replace him with words

Every time I try,my pen goes dry
This not love,obsession I call
Sadly I drowned so deep
Into it I fell so steep
I wish it was love one can unlove right?
Or addiction I could be rehabilitated in another ones heart
My scale weighed his side
The little we shared dugged my heart and buried itself
It grew a bitter herb season after season
Everything I wrote involved him
Everything I thought he intruded in
Everything I smelled he was so around
Everything I heard he was so sound
..obsessed

@viv- poetry

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I felt cold down my spine, my mind froze
My tongue tied together I was numb
I went blind except for darkness
My bones grind and feasted on each other
I couldn’t move
I can’t explain my heart’s quaking apart with the
sound of my heartbeats making my ears deaf
I struggled words out my mouth but got lost
somewhere within my throat
My eyes gazed at the cold atmosphere and tears
stagnated around
I was helpless before the deaths full grabbing
hands
Death was a life’s stage we all have to get to
I thought of death as an happening where people
gather, cry and it was over
I heard of death and I thought of a casket with
lifeless creature, simple
I heard of death and I thought of people fighting
where to rest the deceased
I thought of death and I saw flowers, roses laid
on the fresh earth
I heard of death and a story of people claiming
to be wifes husbands and children of the corpse
I heard of death and I saw people with black
dressed from head to toe
No, I was wrong, death was something different
I was wrong from the start till when I wished I
could have an agreement with death
Agreement to take me in the place of the him
Bidding bye till we meet again, again you never
sure of
May his soul rest in peace, when we left peace-
less pieces on earth, what a crap?
This was hard I can ever imagine
RIP was at everyone’s tip of a tongue, so easy
to let out
But this time it has power to cut through my
flesh and fountain my eyes
Take heart is so cheap to a person loosing
someone on earth
I wish death could speak and explain exactly how
is selects
I wish death could speak and explain it’s
greadyness
If my senses could have a switch to switch off
so I can escape the pain
The pain of loosing forever
The reality on my side is much different with
what I knew
Who I’m I?
That was not me
I needed to wake up in the happening dream
The pain paralysed my happiness and gave birth
a new life minus one two three
@viv-poetry

I held her close to my heart
Such that she felt the loyalty of my heart’s
beating for her
The few moments of silence communicated alot
to my heart
I felt a woman in pain
I felt a woman in love
I felt a woman confused in two
Love and friendship
Her heart was heavy from the slow and deep
breath she took in turns
A pose of her heartbeat made mine skip a little
She was breaking with tears
I was afraid but held her tighter and let her fears
drowned in her tears
I felt a broken heart
I felt her flashbacks and was about to get into
her mind and fight her worries
Before she dispatched the hug,
Her eyes were deep and red
With streams of four five on her cheeks
Like she was begging for something
She made me ready to give everything..
Every drop from her eyes made me guilty
A series of words ran across my mind
I felt suffocating with love for her
I was uneasy and afraid of the outcomes
Her eyes were like reading mine
I restructured my thoughts to put me in the
mood
I held her chin
The many butterflies in me made fun of my
situation I was lost in two
Kissing her heavy lips or uncovering my love for
her
She seemed shy
I lowed my lips on hers
The moves of her hands up my chest brought up
the Hunger in her
Her lips was full of honesty that it’s been long
she was kissed
She was starving for more
Within a second we were lost to a world of us
two
I saw her building a home
I saw her in the labour
I saw her mothering my kids
I saw us aging together
Indeed she’s the woman I’ve been chasing in my
dreams
A faint shy smile crossed as she felt so
comfortable with me around..
@Viv-poetry